Is there anything that you fear or feared in your life? Not a fan of spiders and going in a loft always freaks me out for some reason (more because of the dirt and more spiders).
The one eternal fear I have, one which I would literally think about it everyday, is the fear of everything falling apart. When I was younger between the ages of 12-21, I had a constant fear of not being a financial success. That fear and insecurity was the driving force for me to succeed, coupled with the fact I was never happy, had no friends, was rubbish with women and not physically attractive. If I could not be happier than my peers, I would have more money.
And it worked. At 26 I was married, owned my home, had a child and earned a good salary. But before all this success came in, I would have this fear that everything was going to go to shit. Any success that built me up was only so the fall will be much harder. Now I am physically unfit, mentally burnt out and have burdens (wife, child and mortgage) that means I can't just pack everything in.
My work effort is literally the minimum and I can get away with for a year or so before they catch on and fire me (like my last job). I can see things slowly, but surely, unraveling. Prior, back in my insecure days, I would work 70+ hours if needed, work through the night, study on the train and have the energy of a rabbit when it came to work. Now there are days where I would put a random meeting in the diary or make up some excuse that I don't have to come in because I literally can't get out of bed.
And that's it. That's my eternal fear.