I know I'm loved like Martin Luther king loved the KKK. But may I talk?
I said this on two other forums. So here it goes.
Yes you know the details of my health blah blah. Since 2011 up until I quit this past month it was painfully obvious I lost all mojo. I remember any time I left there were a few "Where is Ryudo" topics. It seemed like the place fell apart. So even tho I wanted to take long breaks or even quit much earlier,I felt I could not as I felt this place would fall apart. It drove me crazy and did not help that early on everyone under the sun was made mod when Yama took over. No one talked to each other. Everyone did whatever they wanted. Which obviously led to many heads crashing. My downfall was my choice to stay on even tho I knew I wanted to leave and knew I had to quit. So me staying as mod did not do me any favors and certainly not you guys. However since getting my own site all the pressure is gone. I feel relaxed again. I feel like I did years ago when HD started. Peaceful. Back to my older self. Working every day with friends like I used to at HD to improve the place in any way we can. It's what has been missing for so long. I do apologize but O guess after so many it falls on deaf ears. I just wish I would have quit ages ago. I mean in April 2011 when I first tried killing myself and went to a mental ward. Despite having a little troll that tried his best at giving me a heart attack(a heart that is only at 17% working) I still feel so rejuvenated at GEN2GEN. Yama is a member and many Dojo goers. I hope to see more. Not like asking ya to leave SD. Not in the least. In any case mock me hate me post pictures of my face on a the fattest person you can find. I don;t care. Maybe I'm the fat dude from blade. But I got big tits. I didn't even need surgery for these babies!
Last like I said on my forums. I can;t tell you how long the past 2 years have been for me and my family. The paperwork,the doctors,the mental and physical strain on all of us,the visits to workfroce services and social security offices and phone calls. It worked out. The Judge viewed the records today to prepare for the hearing on September 4th. He cancelled the hearing. Evidence was too strong and awarded me disability. So in a zen like moment.
For those who read this thanks. For those who tl:dr go fuck yourself Adam. That's cool. But soon I can say I'm RICH BIATCH!