by ThyDarkAngel » Tue Nov 13, 2012 8:51 am
Dark greetings, everyone.
Yes, you guessed it right. Like every time I start a post in such a solemn manner, a wall of text is coming. Like always, read it or ignore it at your own pleasure (or peril).
It's a more positive wall of text while we're at it, thankfully, so there's that.
After going through the humiliation of telling my lame, cringe worthy story to half a dozen landlords I was able to find a lady that allowed me to occupy a room having to pay the rent come December the 8th and not in advance.
Now it's mostly a matter of finding a job, any kind of paying job, ASAP.
A shaddy coffee or a shaddy call center will do just fine, if only I am able to find hiring ones in this near bankrupt Portugal.
Last 'confession', and contrary to how some members interpreted it, I meant to ask you fuck all. Just wanted to say something, somewhere, to hears that maybe cared enough to listen.This time I will indeed ask two things of you, if you don't think ill of me for doing it.
It's not money, mind the more cynic of you.
I hijacked and drove two death angels against the already very shaky towers that were the foundations of my life.
Now I find myself at ground zero with anything else save for a bag of clothes and some bathing products.
IF someone among you has an OLD, NOT IN USE but functional laptop, tablet, smartphone, any kind of device that can properly access the internet and allow me to send CVs, maybe do some 'work at home' jobs and yes, access this place and chill out for a while, and doesn't mind to share it with me I will be really, really gratefull.
I won't say no to, say, a Game Boy Colour and a couple of games either, or an old MP4 or something.
Anything that might help me go through this without falling back too much to my depressive ways would also be a devilsend.
I can't accept anything that requires a tv, for example, for I don't own one currently, nor do I want the community to send me more than 2-3 items.
I know how bad it is for me to be doing this in the first place, I would never abuse the good will of anyone nor the good will of the Dojo as a whole if by any chance someone(s) among you decides to help me out.
In the same lines, I can't promise anything right now for things can still go very sour for me, but if I can rise again and find proper stability and if you're reading this and for any reason decide to help me out. I will do my best to repay you, even if it takes me years, in some way; money, goods, being there for you when you need, whatever.
My second request is a weirder one, and also a more personal one.
I can't possily know how cheap or expensive it is to make a phone call for a portuguese mobile number from where you (whoever you are...) live, but if you, for any strange reason, care enough or have the fainter bond with this pathetic excuse for a human being, can you... call me, now and then?...
I know it's weird, I know it's invasive and I don't really know what to expect to really gain from it (and I'm sure you're gaining nothing but the torture of having to deal with my terrible english pronounciation)... But for some reason I think it would help this lone wolf to be, to feel... I dunno... part of something? More of a capable man? More like a proper human being? I don't know...
And...
I guess this is it.
Sorry to take your time and being such a pain in the royal arse.
Anything, feel free to PM me.
Kindest regardest,
your very own ThyDarkAngel