by disbeliever » Wed Jun 17, 2015 6:29 am
It worked in a very emotional way on me, just as the games, like the end credits of the first Shenmue. Yes, I cried. And made everything harder now (no subliminal message here). The thing is, I already gave up the hope in this industry the way it is now, where it goes. I'm playing games since 25 years already and the last couple of them were the worst ones, despite having more possibilities, hardware-wise. The only game I was really waiting for was P.T. and that 's been cancelled as well.
At the same time, because of fate, or whatever, I need to re-organize my life, go back to school because of the serious health issues I am having (my backbone is pretty much fucked-up for good, several disc prolapses, compressed nerves etc.) I could choose whatever I want (well, anything not really affecting my physical health) while not worrying about the financial aspects. This is a very comfortable situation you may say, so I was thinking about studying Game Design and eventually Game Programming... I am actually visiting classes as of right now, just to see if it's doable for me... I'd start in October this year for good. And the pretty much only reason I'd do that is the very little hope I had that eventually, just EVENTUALLY I'd be able to help make Shenmue 3 a reality, somehow, someday, contribute, do whatever I'm capable of doing in order to bring it back. As naive as it may sound... So, I'm visiting those classes now, have even lesser hope in this industry, seeing how things work business-wise. This industry seems to be a nightmare nowadays. A nighmare for the passionate people being nothing but milked like cows. You'd say it doesn't look much better elsewhere, but I say it used to be better, just look at the games from the past, their quality, originality, look at Shenmue f.e.. The industry has seen better times, for both developers and customers. I actually wanted to go completely indie afterwards, not being a part of this soulless milking machine, but it's easier to say... And while I still wasn't sure if I want to go through all of this at all, this hope, vision of Shenmue III on the horizon, someday, was motivating me. Now it's gone and while I'm certainly happy that Shenmue III becomes reality(F.YEAH!), it made everything more difficult for me. Now there's no light at the end of the tunnel and I still need to decide if I want to invest much time and effort into all of this. Or choose something else...
So yeah, I wish this announcement happened not now but actually few years from now, in the future... Very selfish, I know. Why is Shenmue always affecting me so much? This is weird. Also, I was about to visit Japan for the first time this year and actually was on my track to make this trip happen this month and still am! What a coincidence... What a month! Fate, are you really there?